愛憎ジレンマ。 - Tom

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Upload Date: 11/09/12
Vocals: Gumi
Composer: Tom
Guitarist: jun-jun
Bassist: JUN-T

Author's Comments
"A dependence on escapism."

Love-Hate Dilemma.

I'm pitiful. I'm miserable. I hate myself too much;
But I can't hate me. "Love-Hate Dilemma."


I'm powerless. I'm lonesome. With my ideals, each time
I know of the contrary reality, I shed tears.
"YOU ARE IMPORTANT." If you give me those kinds of words,
I can actually feel worth of existing.

Will I fall out as I am?
Unable to take a single step forward, a dependence on escapism.

I cry out for you to love and hug me, and I tear at my scars.
Since it's fine if it's a lie, make me forget it now.
Things like the ideals I imagine are at best fabrications.
I filled myself in with black with withered art tools.

On a train that's rocking back and forth without anyone on it,
The hand straps are looking down on me reproachfully.
"Come on over here." Like my neck would be hung.
Oh, don't stare at me that gladly now.

Will I vanish as I am?
If I take a single step forward, I wonder, will I be a little at ease?

I don't have the courage to dive down, and I cling to my faded life.
Unable to look forward nor back, I crouch and cower.
Someone pushes my back, and I want a reason to take a step.
Since it's fine to either die or live, I want to advance.

12:00 in the morning passing, it's the east entrance to the Shinjuku station.
"Will I see you from now on?" My dried-up voice.
Since anybody would work, I wanted them to be beside me;
My cell phone continued to make noise.

I cry out for you to love and hug me, and I tear at my scars.

Since it's fine if it's a lie, make me forget it now.
Things like the ideals I imagine are at best fabrications.
I can't fill myself in with black with withered art tools.

6:00 in the morning passing, it's the 7th platform at the Shinjuku station.
"I'll go from now on," my voice trembles.
Since anybody would work, thrust me away.
"Oh, it's no use again..." I sob.

結晶 - Chiquewa

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Upload Date: 02/08/11
Vocals: 初音ミク - Hatsune Miku append solid
Composer: Chiquewa
Illustrator: ゆうきち - Yuukichi

Crystallization

In the high-up clear sky is the light of a flurry of snow. The landscape will eventually be dyed white.
In two shadows stretched long, there are no more gaps where they can't be upfront.

Even at times when I tremble in the cold wind,
It is not cold out if I am next to you.

Let's make a promise. Even if the time ever
Arrives that the two of us get separated,
Don't be sad, 'kay. Let's be smiling,
Since any wish will come true someday,
If we believe.

Although I can speak but of this kind of thing,
It truly was nice to encounter you.

I take a detour, anxiously frightened;
The tears I shed are within my memories.

You smile as if you are an angel
Who got lost in a snowy world.
Even if months and days flow by and we grow old,
Let's be together. Believe that these times
Will continue for eternity.

Although I can't word it very well,
It was truly, truly nice with you.

CARLA - seleP

Requested by Raine (@Rain_chan) of Twitter.



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Upload Date: 04/01/12
Vocals: IA
Composer: seleP
Illustrator: 優木きら - Yūki Kira

Author's Comments
"The irrational world is destroying my love towards you...."

CARLA

The fragments of my memory taken prisoner
By the ends of a moment that blooms and scatters off-season,
I am always continuing to offer up
My wishes for your sake.

That time when we again met by chance was
Already the sadness that we didn't know each other;
I was shouting out with my heart
For you to never keep me apart.


The irrational morals that split apart us two
Are destroying our thoughts for each other.

Even if I continued to wish for us to just be together,
I understood that we'd be destroyed.

After a bit, it seemed we could sneak away.
But the uneasy feeling that you're
Nowhere to be found is continuing to overflow.
I just want to be together with you...


The fragments of my memory taken prisoner
By the ends of a moment that blooms and scatters off-season,
I am always continuing to offer up
My wishes for your sake.

That time when we again met by chance was
Already the sadness that we didn't know each other;
I was shouting out with my heart
For you to never keep me apart.

Dull pain wraps up my body.
My consciousness begins to fade a little.
I continued being frightened. I continued trembling.
I was continuing to cry.

My pure body that continues to break
Wants to shout out, but it won't get through,
But my distorted heart summons up a shriek.
I chew off my lips...


Flowing bloodshed. It's dying me bright red, beautifully.
Not  understanding pain, I continued staring vacantly at the distance.
I continue to laugh like I'm enjoying it, and torment myself.
How come? Why is that?
I trembled and nothing would turn into words.

Being taken prisoner by chains and unable to run away,
Time is quietly flowing along.

I was frightened by the night. I was frightened by shadows.
I'm continuing to be tormented by my nightmares.

Even if I tried inquire to you in my heart,
"Can I be happy someday?",
Although an answer couldn't be found,
I just continued to believe in you.


The days that just repeated my despair
Were just regrettable; you definitely
Won't embrace this kind of me
That can't be helped.

I am reborn... Gentle days.
With you forever. A small wish.
I had believed in that kind of illusion.
It's quietly jarring.

Piercing a blade into my body,
My dirtied thoughts flow.
Just a little longer. After all, I'm
Going to be beside you here on out.

What's nearby is going far away darkly.
Fading, my consciousness is sinking deep.
I want to hug you for eternity
At the ends of a distant world...



Flowing bloodshed. It's dying me bright red, beautifully.
Not  understanding pain, I continued staring vacantly at the distance.
I continue to laugh like I'm enjoying it, and torment myself.
How come? Why is that?
I trembled and nothing would turn into words.