The self that wants to be honest, and the self that by no means can be. It is difficult to convey feelings.
Distorted Princess
"Ugh, I just
HATE you."
——I can't honestly say
something
like that I like you--
"You're nicer to
everyone else, aren't you?"
——If only
all of you was
with only me...
I like you,
I like you,
and while I can't bear it,
why
aren't I
cute
at all?
I can but
tell lies
when I'm
in front of you.
The truth is,
I want to
bewitch you
more cutely!
want to shout to you... I'm loving you!
"You like
honest girls?
You wanna go?"
——Even I
want to be
honest.
"How come
you're always
so mad?"
——There is no
helping it!
I can't hold it back!
"Ugh, you're so annoying...
Go
away."
——I'm sorry,
that's a lie.
Don't go anywhere.
"It's written
all over your face!?
Ugh,
I hate you!!"
——The truth is,
no one else...
"What’s so good
about that girl?"
——Don’t look at her,
look
at me.
"You look stupid talking
so shallowly."
——Don’t look
at that girl
with those eyes…
Even I
want
to be
cute.
But
I can't be
honest
at any rate--
I really
like
your
cute smile.
Show that
kind of face
to me
only.
I like you,
I like you,
and while I can't bear it,
why
aren't I
cute
at all?
I can but
tell lies
when I'm
in front of you.
The truth is,
I want to
bewitch you
more cutely!
At the time when this planet ends,
everyone selling their despair at a loss.
While we only want to live [ordinarily],
it's difficult for us--
I told that kind of story with you.
White skin. The top of a steel pylon.
I was looking at you who laughed,
"Maybe I was born on the wrong planet, huh?"
You don't need me, don't, don't.
You don't need me.
I can't do anything--
Goodbye, bye, bye.
Though I loved you,
it's a trivial thing, see.
We'll both be someone different
if we meet again someday.
You'll cease to exist, see,
and living will be bitter.
This planet is continuing on.
You and the stars not intersecting,
I'm becoming an apathetic person.
I also forget the cherished things--
I understand you're gone.
The corners of town. Visages. Searching.
Tears are falling at the railroad crossing.
I drown all alone--
You don't need me, don't, don't.
If I were there,
I'd hurt you someday, see.
Goodbye, bye, bye.
Though I loved you,
it's better for me to've forgotten, see.
We'll both be someone different
if we meet again someday.
You'll cease to exist, see,
and living will be bitter.
A meteor is streaming by.
There's also no words to wish with.
You'll forget about me someday,
and so I will vanish.
Author's Comments
"'I'll sing a song that I'll send to you.'"
Sky
Hey, what were you looking at here?
The blue of the sky you really liked? The vibrant flowers?
Hey, time has lapsed considerably since then, y'know.
I sent a picture of the sky you really liked to you today.
"Someday, let's go outside and play together," you said--
"Since we'll get healthy and be chasing each other, y'know," you said--
But you totally turned into a tender light, y'know.
Not even able to convey it in the end,
The memories that ended while I couldn't ever, y'know, say it.
Since I'll say the words that I couldn't say
At that time, be listening in the sky.
Hey, do you know? I did like it.
Your voice that talked as you looked at the sky you really liked.
Since you said something like, "Hey, draw me,"
I drew you smiling with your back to the sky you really liked.
"I'll go to hear your songs if I'm cured someday, y'know," you said--
"I'll be thinking of you even when we're apart," you said--
But after that you were unable to carry out the promise.
With all that was bestowed to me in the end,
I'm sorry that I couldn't bestow anything to you.
I'll sing a song that I'll send to you.
Be smiling and listening in the sky.
Not even able to convey it in the end,
The memories that ended while I couldn't ever, y'know, say it.
Since I'll say the words that I couldn't say
At that time, be listening in the sky.
"With all that was bestowed to me in the end,
I'm sorry that I couldn't bestow anything to you.
All the time, y'now, you were being encouraged.
For you happening upon me, thank you." from korumi
"Hi nelly lan-la" is nonsense words created by Hachi. A discussion here proposes that it "means that it's alright since the gods are there, because they're even chanting it to a crying child."
Author's Comments
"I made the addition of a summer festival into a song." Wonderland and the Sheep's Song
Make a face like it's nothing, dog,
With a "WOW-OW" that's hurting your feelings.
Today's a rainy day.
A girl was tear-stained on the top of a roof,
And she licked a candy apple and looked at the sky.
Today's a rainy day.
Even if I sing holding a lantern,
I'll make preparations for tomorrow
And shall chant luscious words, see.
Lookit--hi nelly lan-la!
Even if I sing with the face of a fish,
I'll jump over the barbed wire
And shall play, I shall laugh, see!
The inside of this town where I sing of good-for-nothing love.
If I turn on the lights, there's nothing.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, listen, on the signal I'll go to see you.
I'll go to welcome a new light.
Forget asking what they're name is, again
With the red public phone going, "WHOA-OH-OH."
Today's a rainy day.
The tobacco smoke got totally drenched, and again
The coughing back alley left and I went walking.
Rainy day.
Will you be ready once you prop up your antenna?
I'll show my face from the shopping district
And shall chant to the crying child.
Lookit--hi nelly lan-la!
Cram up all those "goodbyes".
Burden yourself with antinomy.
Don't cry and don't waver.
Shall I illuminate with the light in my left hand
The globe that spins in my right hand?
At those times when the color of the sky changes,
The one left in my chest is you.
I waited for the gods' return
at the rain shelter of a small-time candy store.
Come, shall we sing it, the Sheep's Song!
That lantern in your hand Is the Sun that shines on everything.
The inside of this town where you sing songs.
Turn on the lights. Such a great thing.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, listen, on the signal I'll go to see you.
I'll go to welcome a new light.
What's there ahead of the tunnel?
I'm going to take steps toward the outside of town.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, listen, on the signal I'll go to see you.
I'll go to welcome a new light.
Though I inquire, "Are you ready?",
You do not know this game to begin with.
Oh, it seems you are skillfully hiding.
You do not understand if you are hiding or not to begin with.
Each time I searched for love-colored fragments,
I did insist that there was no such thing for me.
I bet it is the place that they visited too;
A lot of miracles (tracks) definitely did exist.
Everyone is
A thing to search for.
Two people.
Like they surely comprehended something.
I bet we'll meet somewhere.
We'll cuddle close together
With the same-colored facial expressions (faces)--
If I had the courage to move forward one more step,
Would I be able to face you yourself here without resistance (hesitance), I wonder?
"I'm ready."
I looked over my shoulder at your voice.
It changed color in the vacant world covered in flaws (wounds).
But I can't find someone like you.
I was sad and miserable and I started to run away.
I pass under the breaks of lies in a daze,
I want to bump into you and spit out the poison and flat out crumble down--
The lies are hiding the true you.
I lose my place
To be.
I trip.
Taken aback, I give them a glance.
They look at me who's puzzledly struggling.
I panic and avert my eyes.
"They say that you were already hiding your face
In the confusion of the moment before the game, yes, even began, y'know."
"It's too late now."
I clung to their voices.
I gently threw excuses at the preposterous place I escaped to.
Yup, I can't find someone like you.
I was sad and miserable and I started to run away.
I pass under the breaks of lies in a daze--
I WANTED TO SEE YOU, I WANTED TO LOVE, I WANTED TO TALK, AND BEING COMPLETELY APART
Was frightening and I neglected my limbs.
Was the one who was hiding truly you?
Since way, way before the game began for me too,
Weren't you slipping into glossing things over and
Hiding your true face?
Although I flat out lost the love-colored fragments,
Although just a little time has flat out passed,
I just face you, and I have only one word
That I ought to convey.
Who decided that they couldn't find the things
That they totally lost?
I will make this game end.
Start to run. I do start to run.
I want to SEE you. I want to SEE you,
I'll stick out my tongue in regards to having tripped,
And I am gonna laugh. I am gonna laugh.
Your tears that started flowing out with all their might,
Your voice that got hoarse and vanished,
And your heart that you lost too--
"--Now I found you."
Author's Comments
"In a room where the rain falls..."
Liar Fake Flower
I murmured in one phrase that I have no confidence.
You gave one flower to that kind of me.
Whose sake am I living through today for?
I want to know, and today too I search
For you.
The flower that matches the fabricated spectacle is a
"Fake flower".
Your match for me, see. A counterfeit. An imitation.
Your voice that sneered at me.
It looks pitch black under your smile.
I spun and went around and came here,
On the morning that the imitation flower withered.
There's no counterfeits in the spectacles where you were,
And the spectacles where I am are only counterfeits.
Will you love me?
You're not supposed to?
It's all lies, see,
And is being solidified.
Your lies that sneered at me.
It looks pitch black under your smile.
Don't wither at the time when you'll
Spin and go around and love me.
I'll be waiting, see.
Your voice that sneered at me.
It looks pitch black under your smile.
I spun and went around and came here,
On the morning that the imitation flower withered.
